Oblivious me..

I havent felt this way before. Im like burning to death by the fire that I created. Im nothing right now, just like a sheep that is guided by a lame shepard. How I wish Everything was fine, but it was meant to happen this way, and I know that I cant do anything to help this poor guy. And things will never be the same, same as how it was when I still know how to make myself happy. Now Im never contented, now I dont know how to kneel. And no, its not God's will. Its just that Im forgetting to look back, look back at the time when everything was just a scratch.