My lighter's still burning for you.....

My lighter's still burning for you

I've made another confession last night, it wasn't the best of confessions, i did it over Yahoo Messenger with the person being offline. It's the only way i can tell you you're everything i ever wanted. Guess i'm your fool. I feel that i'm in the state i was a long time ago, on a chase that i'll never catch up with.
Been so emo lately, i think it's the most emo period of my life, that it's causing me to develop suicidal thoughts. Was on the verge to do it last night, but i got a grip of myself, kept my composure and left the house to get myself drunk instead. Call me a loser, call me a fool over someone who doesn't know my existence.
Melancholy has been part of my life for so long that it has become me. Sometimes i enjoy feeling this way, it makes me feel like myself. Maybe i got a black bile, that's why i'm constantly so melancholic. A person whose music i can really relate to is Aaron Lewis from Staind, whose lyrics are angsty and pain streaken filled to the brim, plus he sings like he's mourning, with so much feelings put into it, bringing the whole world down, and raising all the hands of lighters up.



I've state my case, i don't fit in.

My lighter's still burning for you.